im just saying, . .

its really hard to mingle with those who dont think alike. . its not like i havent tried, i did.. in fact many times.. but it just wont work.. things dont necessarily be the way i want it to be. like for example when i say something, i only mean what i say.. so dont go imply other things. i find it confusing, when people tend to rephrase me but mean completely different thing than what i intend it to be. . .

so, dats the problem. i was reminded by a good friend of mine, that whenever i have problem. . quit thinking about the problem.. find the solution! so, i guess the solution would be: TALK LESS.

now, im less interested with people. before, they came looking for me and i would lend my shoulder for them to cry on. because, i of all people WOULD know that sometimes what people need is TO BE HEARD. so, i was there for them.. but now? im just too tired living up to their expectation. im just tired of trying to be nice, and honest..because apparently THAT is not what people wanna hear. i DONT DO SUGAR-COAT. i listen, give my HONEST opinion, and dats that.. guess people nowadays cant really handle reality, can they?

yurp. im not bothered to do pet talk anymore. i dont care how awkward the situation would be, because i JUST dont wanna be THE ONLY one breaking the ice. im NO tool.. im a person. i have feeling. and NOW, the person's feeling is: HURT.

i remember one of my friend saying to me, "it doesnt pay to be nice to people".. even the thought of it gives me shiver.. because, well.. he could just be damn right!