Choosy?

Okay, so i hanged out with my friends last Friday night. Nothing unusual, just makan-makan and yet another karaoke session. Thats pretty much the things that I do on a weekly basis.

Somehow along the way we realised that Valentine's Day is just around the corner. Some of them are either taken or recently turned single. Well, as for myself.. I was single, still single and unless by some God's willing, most probably I'd remain as single too at least until this coming Valentine's.

Naturally, it is inevitable to get down into this discussion. How come Ive always been single? Well, good question. I never thought of that myself. Well, I just dont really think about this. Ive got a love-to-hate career to keep me busy, a loving family that I can come home to, and of course my either-with-me-or-against-me friends.

All of them agreed, that perhaps im just being too choosy. Well, am I? I dont know.. my natural reaction to that is "where got?..." and then, it got me thinking. Can you blame me if I dont know what I want? When I said, "come what may.." they laughed at me. To be honest with you, no one ever dared to ask me out. You might argue, why dont I ask someone out then? Trust me, I tried.. If no one wants to go out with me, what can I say? Too bad then.

Rather than being defensive about the whole thing, I want to embrace this. So what if im being choosy then? I think it is not cool to toy around with people's feeling. I shall not settle for the second-best while waiting for the best person for me to come around. If that means I have to stay single for another 5 years before THE ONE finally show up, I WILL. Once I do love someone, I would love so passionately. I would hate it if someone takes me as second to something, or like a temporary hot cake.. because I would never do that to others. Feeling is a single most-powerful thing in someone's life, and once hurt..things wont be the same again. Trust me, I would know.

P/s: Ive got exactly one day to go. If it doesnt happen tomorrow, I guess it will never happen. After this 14th, if things still stay the way they are..I am officially married to my work. ;p