sorry?

hei, i think i owe u an apology. ive been a complete jerk these few days.
i might have been a little quiet, and im sorry if i u got annoyed or something.
the truth is, i was taken aback by ur previous message, especially when u said how i was one of the people u appreciate most in life? that was just too mouthful for me.

i dont know where did that come from, so i decided to distant myself a bit.
i dont wanna be sending a wrong signal to you. i have issue with commitment, and u can ask my friends around. look, uve been great to me, and i appreciate you as my friend.

i just think that u dont know me much, and to begin with, i dont handle expectation well, because more often than not, i fail. and i for once, dont wanna fail you.. i know u deserve someone better, and unfortunately, that someone is not me.

I have a lot more to learn about life, my priorities are different now, and my life is complicated. had we met 2 years ago, im sure we would have been something by now.. but things have changed - i changed.

i wished things would stay the same between us, that i can act stupid in front you and your friends.. but i dont see how that is possible anymore. Now, i dont know if im even myself anymore with u and ur friends around.

i humbly would want more time before i can take on such responsibilities.. lemme figure out this thing on my own, at my own time.. because i dont even know where to start.

now u tell me, HOW THE HELL DO I FIX MYSELF, WHEN I DONT EVEN KNOW IF IM BROKEN OR NOT?

again, im sorry. i hope i dont have to tell u this.
BUT,i am a jerk.. .