regret? i dont think so.

I have been really busy with stuffs lately.. im on 2 (soon, i'll grant myself plus one) weeks holiday after the hardcore studying period i had in January. well, im not kidding.. i had never worked so hard for something, because i long success so badly, that it hurts to think about not getting second-class upper this time. Well, lets put aside what is done, and talk about future planning. Right now, result is not so important because i know i worked hard, and im happy, and if i still dont get what i hoped for, then what can i say.. guess something is just beyond my capabilities.

Btw, i do have something to point out. Some people question my decision for signing up at Engineering Maths class as one of my optional modules. In my defense, i just needed something to keep my mind sharp. I knew i wasnt THAT good in maths, and boy this module really made me worked my ass off. One after another, test and assignment and finally the ultimate exam. So yeah, these translated into triple efforts needed. Just to paint you the real picture here, i scored ZERO(NIL, KOSONG) for its test.. I had never felt THAT stupid in my entire life.. but lesson learned, i studied hard for the final exam. Unfortunately, It didnt turn out so well too. Well, maybe i was aiming higher that i feel i didnt do enough. So, DO I REGRET MY DECISION FOR SIGNING UP IN THE FIRST PLACE? I dont think so lah.. I did what i could, and i could have not done any better.. so, im contented with my effort, and what will be, WILL BE. i would prefer to have something that i am in controlled with, and the result should reflect my effort rather than hoping for miracle. So yeah, i feel so happy with myself as i now begin to take on more responsibility on my studies and take charge. THIS FEEL GOOD.

REGARDLESS OF THE RESULT, IM HAPPY I HAD THE BALLS TO GO FOR IT. *patting my own back.