GAME ON!

last week was a tough week. i got my 1st semester result, and there were so many things to do, too little time. maybe its time i finally get serious with my studies.
honestly, this past semesters i hadnt really been to class. i was oblivious to the fact that this is now a completely different ball-game. The subjects get tougher and tougher, and if i dont outdo myself this time, i can kiss my degree GOODBYE!

on top of that, the mounting pressure to do well is also coming from my parents. i gotta be honest on this, all this while.. i was never worried bout trying to please anyone, and that sadly included my parents. i was in my own world, doing whatever i do only because i want to do it- for myself. i wanna do well in exam because i wanna know where i stand,not because i need to prove something to anyone. i was taught (made to believe?) that its the effort that matters, and i developed an averse attitude towards the outcome in everything i do. i believe that its never about the end-result, but its the journey that teaches u the most. so, if i screwed a certain paper, i would say, "so what? I'LL DO BETTER NEXT TIME". BUT NOW, THINGS HAVE CHANGED- for the better hopefully. i never felt the pressure to do well, not until recently. i guess one will just wake up one day and decided to grow up, no? i have a feeling that this is developed out of all the drama and issues my family had to deal with for the past few months. its true as a saying goes, what doesnt kill you, makes u stronger. and i think that my relationship with family has definitely taken a positive turn- at least on my side.

for what its worth, i'll do better, no.. i'll do GREAT in this coming exam! i will.


THE GAME IS ON BABY! I.T.S O.N!